LAST POSTING

this will be the last posting of my secret blog. becos i am letting her to see my blog. thanks for the support my buddies!!

BLOGGING OUT = FEEL BETTER?

just trying out does blogging out makes my feels better. usually i wouldnt even have the mood to do anything.

i dunno why again i am down. started with a pleasant day, during the way to sch i call someone, and that person didn't pick up the phone.. since then my mood is starting to deteriorate. all along in class today i am doing my assignments. i guess some of my friends had noticed me into myself today, thanks for asking even though it doesnt help at all i appreciate the concern inside my heart.

SWEET FEELINGS..

tonight is the best night at home for me. anqi and i had chatted on the phone (42.38min) the longest record with the help from costing. haha.. starting say costing, behind say alot of other things.. just so sweet..

THANKS SORRY THANKS SORRY

went ndp today, nv tok to her.. i dun even dare to look at her.. haha.. my heart will tumb tumb fast fast. i bought a poohbear keychain with her name from hobby craft.

just now in msn ask her 11 and 12 aug free or not.. she say 11 not free and 12 dunno free or not.. means 12 got chance!! i still ask her 27 aug wanna go see 2 moon together. most likely she will see with me..

I AM TIRED

its a fine day today, i bought anqi a packet of hello panda. thanks sam for the delivery.. after sch, while walking out of the sch suddenly saw anqi's group. going home too. she purposely walk very fast. and i have no more 'energy' to catch her up. my loving heart is exhausted.. i know, most of u will say she was just shy. but it really hurt my pride looking her backview fading away..

i don't know why, i just send her a smiley face sms after that.. do i really need to be thick skinned in order to get a girl? i need a rest.. after a rest, i will be okay again.

tomorrow will be a better day!!!

THE PENCIL I BOUGHT FOR HER

here are the pics of the gift i bought for her.. bought it from my class entrepreneur students.





i gave her the one with her name while i keep mine :D anyone interested can visit J8 on Sunday 6 august.

TODAY I SENT HER HOME

after school i go eat with jiawen and after eating jiawen went home. i sat at the amphi to wait for her to dismiss. waited for some time, saw my sec sch fren... he early dismiss cos lesson cancelled so he come find me and sat down to chat with me. finally saw mz that group walk out. they are laughing that i am sitting there, probably shocked i think. they just walk out to the sch despite my presence.. i think she shy ba. than i go follow follow them.. at interchange, far and mz took their initiative to pangseh anqi hahaha! but dot is there, anqi hug dot's hand not wanting her to leave her alone.. finally after awhile dot also left. its my turn hehe..

we walked as i am recalling what question should i ask.. i actually did prepared alot of things to say but it just wouldn't come out from my mouth. walk until the bus stop. the bus 156 came.. up the bus, i see there's a 2 seater at the back of the bus but to my horror, anqi sat down beside another person.. i can just sit behind her. i gave anqi a gift. the whole journey was silent. finally reach her bus stop, we got down.. she ask me 'u wan to go where?' i replied 'i just wan to send u home'. walk walk walk.. to her lift, she said thank you and ask me to take care on my way.

on my bus back to amk i fall aslp, she smsed me some thank you thingys make me wake up, i reply her 'thanks for smsing me, i just missed my bus stop' her reply 'ohh u fall aslp ah? why u say thank you? sorry..' my reply 'for what sorry? i like can le' her reply 'aiyo.. haha.. ok up to you.. haha'

I NEVER GIVE UP

despite what anqi had blogged today which apparently she seems to be having somebody else in her mind. i WON'T GIVE UP! this is the path i wanna walk, it is my choice! i won't stop liking her. i don't call it love, because i am not allowed to go onto that stage yet.

i want to thank you all my close friends for constantly supporting me when i need help, cheering me up when i am down, giving me golden advices when i am confused.

lets wait and see whether this story has an happy ending..